Gone to God - By Janus
I loved her eyes. Like her nature: animated, even forceful; at times soft and yielding at others. She surrendered to me, seemingly without reserve, allowing me to open to her. Beautiful moments just being together in silence, making love, talking about the arts, science, humanity, the world.
Now, these sometimes dynamic, sometimes subtle, changes come when she speaks of her faith. As before, soft or strident, she seems innocent, yet wise and so very open and ready to love with all her being. Now, it seems shes ready to surrender to Him.
My feelings for her havent changed, but now they seem inappropriate somehow. I feel almost ashamed of my carnal desires. The last thing I want would be to tempt her away from her faith, and her decision to be celibate. My feelings concerning her seem to be an enjoyable torment; classically bittersweet.
My thoughts are less generous, I feel intellectual dissatisfaction with this situation; from the perspective of desiring a resolution, I want to argue that she should not sacrifice the chance of love in this world, for an impossible dream of other-worldly love.
But would that be right? I remain unconvinced.
Now, these sometimes dynamic, sometimes subtle, changes come when she speaks of her faith. As before, soft or strident, she seems innocent, yet wise and so very open and ready to love with all her being. Now, it seems shes ready to surrender to Him.
My feelings for her havent changed, but now they seem inappropriate somehow. I feel almost ashamed of my carnal desires. The last thing I want would be to tempt her away from her faith, and her decision to be celibate. My feelings concerning her seem to be an enjoyable torment; classically bittersweet.
My thoughts are less generous, I feel intellectual dissatisfaction with this situation; from the perspective of desiring a resolution, I want to argue that she should not sacrifice the chance of love in this world, for an impossible dream of other-worldly love.
But would that be right? I remain unconvinced.
Comments (7)
Sounds like a dilemma more then a story. Well, her love remains the same, but it is directed to someone else. If you can live with another being that is more important in her life than you, go for it. However, someone who does not love you enough to sleep with you... should not you withdraw? There is a point to carnal desire.
If I'm dating someone and we've had sex and she later says we're no longer going to have sex and that she's not sure she can sustain a relationship with me because of the demands of the Heavenly Father, Creator of all that is just and true, Yahweh, Jesus H. Christ, or other such nonsense, my response would be to tell her if she's grown tired of all that is Hanover, just tell me so that I can move on. The God excuse, while creative, isn't really a very good one, especially if she doesn't want to have to explain herself when I see her around later with someone else.
Quoting Caldwell
Did they make love or did she practice celibacy? I'm a little confused.
Both.
Made love. First paragraph.
Then she changed. She surrendered herself to God and became celibate. Third paragraph.
Gone to God.
Nothing more to add. A story well written :up:
I enjoyed the unholy torment :naughty: