The Last Leaf Of My Cherry-Tree by javi2541997

Noble Dust August 06, 2023 at 02:57 525 views 19 comments
The dress that I have been commissioned this year is abstract. No, it is not because it is modern, but because not even the sender who requests it is capable of understanding it. The warehouse - all built of wood - has cotton fabrics from the region where my ancestors worked, to the west of where we are now. I remember my mother always told me when I was a kid: They are unique in this world, look how soft, touch them! The memories of my childhood are made of these. Soft and colourful. And that's how my childhood started rolling. Surrounded by polyester, velvet, taffeta, tulle, Tweed and many other fabrics. I remember the whisper of the sewing machine sometimes appearing in my dreams.
She was partly right. Not only for quality, but for its beauty. It seemed that each one represented spring, summer, autumn and winter. The fabrics ended up becoming a dress that was shown in a ceremony throughout the year: whether it was Easter, the beginning of spring, New Year... how many clothes and how many different moments and memories! After finishing all these ceremonies, the buyers wrote us letters thanking us for the work done. They were all very satisfied. That was the great satisfaction, the recognition of others. Money was the least important. I think I lost it in a move, but my mother kept all the mail she received in a small wooden box. For her, each letter was a different story that had been lived thanks to our clothes and dresses. It made her delighted to think so.
From my window I perceive how the leaves of the cherry tree in the garden glide blandly. I understand that such an ephemeral nature have to be materialized in the fabrics that I have in my warehouse. When the orders are finished, I feel nostalgic for the work done. Oh how melancholy it makes me remember my mother weaving the fabrics here with me! Does nature also feel nostalgic when the cherry trees are wilderness? I love dedicating myself to weaving fabrics and clothes when I am aware that life is ending. Hemlocks and nettles surround the garden where my cherry tree perches. When I was a kid, I used to play in it with the dogs we had at home. Smell of spring, margarine, lemonade and flowers. Now none of that is present. All that remains is this old workshop where I weave and that hundred-year-old cherry tree. I remember my mother hinting in front of me: You're not going to leave this old atelier, are you? please, don't do it... there are so many memories, nostalgia, stories and anecdotes that it would be a shame if they were forgotten. Outside the studio there was a thunderous murmur of cicadas.
Between these thoughts, I realize that I have finished the dress. I write in the postal order note: "please enjoy this dress, because all the memories that you would live with it will fade like the last leaf on my cherry tree"

Comments (19)

javi2541997 August 06, 2023 at 16:11 #827584
It’s OK. I think the author wanted to express some familiar feelings. If this story were written with a different structure, maybe the result would be different.
Caldwell August 07, 2023 at 04:45 #827755
I'm not very fond of this diary style fiction. The narrator reminisces the past with fondness -- which is a good element in a story -- then brings the story back to the present. The readers must have been waiting for something, a revelation, or a secret, or an event that should be out-of-sync with the goodness of the narrator's world -- i.e. the beauty of the fabrics and the cherry tree.
I guess I was expecting for something that breaks: something's gotta give.
Noble Dust August 07, 2023 at 05:03 #827756
I don't mean to pile on the negatives, and I will get to the positives -but for me, and again for me, and I have strange tastes, it's the focus on the physical that leaves me cold. The beauty of the textures of the fabric, or the fact that it's an old factory made of wood - this seems to be important to the story, but these tactical aesthetics leave me cold; I don't feel them, quite literally. This nostalgic attachment to touch is foreign to me. I relate to nostalgia through other senses. So, I think this story can probably evoke nostalgia, or otherwise be meaningful to others, but for me, this sort of story does nothing for my own sense of nostalgia. That's not to say it isn't well done. Just not for me, I think. I can read this and imagine how this sort of story would evoke nostalgia in someone else. I think I can see how it does that for that person. I hope that make sense.
Benkei August 07, 2023 at 12:12 #827900
I enjoyed it. It's a bit rough around the edges, I'm suspecting a non-native English speaker. But it has a certain charm that resonated with me. It's a tiny encapsulated break from a world that is nowadays moving so fast it trips over itself.
Baden August 07, 2023 at 18:00 #828037
Well-written slice of life. It doesn't have a strong narrative but it has a consistent and somewhat enchanting mood. I enjoyed it.

Quoting Benkei
. It's a bit rough around the edges, I'm suspecting a non-native English speaker.


It needs a bit of proofreading but the general use of language is quite sophisticated. I wonder if the mistakes are due to being a non-native speaker or just lack of editing.
Amity August 08, 2023 at 07:58 #828244
Quoting Noble Dust
The dress that I have been commissioned this year is abstract. No, it is not because it is modern, but because not even the sender who requests it is capable of understanding it


A fantastic first sentence. Why would any buyer not understand a dress? Because it is abstract in the way an idea exists in the mind of the maker. A concept combining the material and the mental.
So far, so philosophical.

The dressmaker takes us back to the past and memories of a mother's words. About fabrics:

Quoting Noble Dust
They are unique in this world, look how soft, touch them!


Introduced at an early age to the feel and wonder of touch. A colourful view. The sounds of sewing together. Appearing not just in the 'real' world but in another realm. Sensitive and sensual.

Quoting Noble Dust
She was partly right. Not only for quality, but for its beauty. It seemed that each one represented spring, summer, autumn and winter.


The diverse materials are used in accordance with the seasons; the weight and the weather.
The clothes with no labels but memories attached.

Quoting Noble Dust
...my mother kept all the mail she received in a small wooden box. For her, each letter was a different story that had been lived thanks to our clothes and dresses. It made her delighted to think so.



The letters mattered more than money.
The stories linked physical experience and symbolism.
I thought of the word 'enclothed'
If you want 'abstract', here it comes:
'Enclothed Cognition'.
https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/abs/pii/S0022103112000200

Whatever, it was the simple delight of the mother that mattered.
Now we return to the present:

Quoting Noble Dust
From my window I perceive how the leaves of the cherry tree in the garden glide blandly. I understand that such an ephemeral nature have to be materialized in the fabrics that I have in my warehouse [...] Does nature also feel nostalgic when the cherry trees are wilderness? I love dedicating myself to weaving fabrics and clothes when I am aware that life is ending. Hemlocks and nettles surround the garden where my cherry tree perches


Funny, but I can't remember ever seeing cherry tree leaves falling in autumn. Somehow, when I think of cherry trees it is their short-lived pink blossoms that spring to mind. The brief beauty can make us appreciate the short time we have...

We are part of nature but we rarely ask if it feels like we do...as the seasons turn.
As we become more aware of ending life. And the small part we play in the universe.
What is it all about? Perhaps, there is nothing more than being in the moment.
And we can still be there, even as we return fleetingly to the past:

Quoting Noble Dust
When I was a kid, I used to play in it with the dogs we had at home. Smell of spring, margarine, lemonade and flowers. Now none of that is present. All that remains is this old workshop where I weave and that hundred-year-old cherry tree. I remember my mother hinting in front of me: You're not going to leave this old atelier, are you? please, don't do it... there are so many memories, nostalgia, stories and anecdotes that it would be a shame if they were forgotten.


Margarine? In sandwiches perhaps yes. But would you smell it?

The listening to the gentle urges of a mother not to leave or at least not to forget the stories.

Was there ever a thought of moving on by...?

Quoting Noble Dust
Outside the studio there was a thunderous murmur of cicadas.


Is that a good or a bad thing? I don't know anything about cicadas.
Does this swarm of insects murmur or is it more a buzzing and clicking? Are they musical?

Quoting Noble Dust
Between these thoughts, I realize that I have finished the dress. I write in the postal order note: "please enjoy this dress, because all the memories that you would live with it will fade like the last leaf on my cherry tree"


'Between these thoughts' - they haven't been empty but more of a meditation.
The dressmaking almost automatic but part of the process: the sewing together of material and sense.

Then, like the mother who dispensed such wisdom, a note for the buyer. For the future of the now.
Put bluntly: Enjoy today. Tomorrow you're dead!
Memento mori, memento vivere. :death: :flower:

***

A most thoughtful and sensitive story. I wonder if there is a word for a long haiku? A haibun?

Quoting javi2541997
If this story were written with a different structure, maybe the result would be different.


Yes. How would you write it as a haiku or similar?
Letters of life, love, leaving
Past, present and future
Eternal gifts.

:hearts: :pray: :sparkle:















Jamal August 08, 2023 at 08:31 #828256
I like it. Unlike @Noble Dust, I actually wish there had been more focus on the physical, more description of fabrics and dressmaking. This would have made the emotional associations stronger and more convincing.

It also would’ve been nice if there’d been a narrative, but it’s not that kind of story I guess.
Nils Loc August 09, 2023 at 19:12 #828810
Does the last leaf of the cherry tree correspond to the last dress being made? Sounds as if the narrator is ill and this sort of pain about leaving life and reminiscing about its past joys enhances the nostalgic element a bit for me.

Could be cleaned up a bit, with the pauses and organizing power of paragraphs. Nice job though.

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Amity August 09, 2023 at 19:19 #828819
Quoting Nils Loc
Does the last leaf of the cherry tree correspond to the last dress being made? Sounds as if the narrator is ill and this sort of pain about leaving life and reminiscing about its past joys enhances the nostalgic element a bit for me


Oh, yes. I never thought of that. Clever. And your pic is beautiful :fire:

ucarr August 12, 2023 at 20:25 #829915
I voted like for the story because the narrative is filled with enchanted lines of prose poetry:

Quoting Author
The dress that I have been commissioned this year is abstract. No, it is not because it is modern, but because not even the sender who requests it is capable of understanding it.


Author14550:I remember the whisper of the sewing machine sometimes appearing in my dreams.


Quoting Author
From my window I perceive how the leaves of the cherry tree in the garden glide blandly


Quoting Author
Does nature also feel nostalgic when the cherry trees are wilderness?


Quoting Author
I understand that such an ephemeral nature have to be materialized in the fabrics that I have in my warehouse.


Quoting Author
"please enjoy this dress, because all the memories that you would live with it will fade like the last leaf on my cherry tree"




Jack Cummins August 16, 2023 at 19:58 #831080
I found that the description of the making of the dress an important focus for reflection. It is possible that more description of this could have given been used for expanding the character of the narrator, as well as paragraph breaks. But, it was fairly enjoyable to read.
Vera Mont August 16, 2023 at 20:58 #831095
Besides the tiny flaws in word use that other have mentioned, there are two wee discrepancies of detail: How can he or she, still living in the same house, working in the same shop, have lost the mother's thank-you notes in a move? And polyester??

The narrator is at the end of an era, which had already been fractured by a long ago dislocation. That might have been elaborated better. But their cottage industry kept it alive through the mother - presumably dead and still much missed after many years, because of the close bond they had shared. I can wholly identify with that and I think it's expressed beautifully. The fabrics, the warehouse and the cherry tree are symbols of that continuity coming to an end.

Quoting Noble Dust
I love dedicating myself to weaving fabrics and clothes when I am aware that life is ending.

The narrator evidently has no family and is old, no longer able to look after the property, and we know this is the last dress, because they enclose a note, by way of passing on the responsibility to keep memory alive.

I liked it very much.
Vera Mont August 19, 2023 at 16:22 #831840
I would have liked a little more attention for this one.
It has no lure of suspense or violence, but the gentle, mindful, careful description of things passing, things lost, is worth a second reading and some reflection.
(Or maybe I'm just old, sentimental and morbid? No! It is a beautiful story. )

Quoting Amity
Is that a good or a bad thing? I don't know anything about cicadas.
Does this swarm of insects murmur or is it more a buzzing and clicking? Are they musical?


I forgot to mention them earlier. It's not bad or good; it kind of signals the end of summer. I was going to consider this a flaw, since cicadas usually sing in August, not in the autumn, but then I decided the cherry tree is dying - our 2 remaining elms are almost bare now. Yes they are loud. The species we have in Ontario sound like a particularly bad case of microphone feedback. They sing at dusk on hot days. In folklore, they sing 6 weeks before frost; another indication of things ending.
javi2541997 August 22, 2023 at 17:12 #832759
Reply to Caldwell Reply to Noble Dust Reply to Benkei Reply to Baden Reply to Amity Reply to Jamal Reply to Nils Loc Reply to Jack Cummins Reply to Vera Mont Reply to ucarr

Thank you for commenting on my story.

Firstly, when I finished translating it, I thought that it was written weirdly. Or at least very forced. I wrote the story in Spanish and then, I translated myself the best I could. I tried not to use Google translate that much and more a dictionary with the aim of not losing the main point of the plot. Although it is true that you all noticed that this was written by a non-native speaker, I guess that most of you hadn't difficulties to follow the point of the story.

On the other hand, why did I write a story full of nostalgia like this? Well, I was inspired by Kawabata's novel "The Old Capital". It is a beautiful story. I was attached to their characters because of the melancholy they were suffering from a Japanese traditional Gion festival. A lot of memories of family, friends, youth, pets, etc... are shown. My aim was that: the nostalgic vibe of an activity which is consistently done while time passes by...

The title is inspired by one of the main characters. When Chieko was born, the narrator says: "[...] Under the cherry blossoms at night at Gion Shrine"


:flower:

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Jack Cummins August 22, 2023 at 17:40 #832766
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Your explanation of your inspiration and the image posted above are extremely useful in understanding your story. Sometimes, so much becomes clearer after understanding such background. It may present a challenge for short stories, especially in how much is revealed or not, and how much is put together in the imagination of the reader. What you say makes it clearer, and, not in any particular criticism of your writing, the art may be about weaving the essential ideas into fiction a clear way. As I say, I am not criticising this piece specifically, but raising it as an area for writing for all of us who write short stories.
Vera Mont August 22, 2023 at 18:46 #832785
Quoting javi2541997
Firstly, when I finished translating it, I thought that it was written weirdly. Or at least very forced. I wrote the story in Spanish and then, I translated myself the best I could.


Next time, I suggest you don't translate, but re-tell it from memory. Translation has to overcome not only vocabulary gaps (that's the easy part) but mismatches in construction and grammar. I have observed that non-native speakers are more fluent when they think in English. Your English in posts is better than many native speakers'; I see nothing weird in your composition.
One thing that bothered me a bit in the story was the weaving and sewing. While many weavers also do their own sewing, here fabrics are mentioned that can't be made on site, and the narrator is never at the loom. This little bit of confusion may be the result of translating, along with a couple of other inconsistencies.
These minor flaws didn't spoil the story for me: all the significant details and allusions more than made up for them. It was, in fact, my favourite. Hardly anyone does nostalgia or melancholy anymore.
javi2541997 August 22, 2023 at 19:18 #832788
Reply to Jack Cummins Thank you for your kind words, Jack. :up:

javi2541997 August 22, 2023 at 19:25 #832789
Reply to Vera Mont Vera, I appreciate your analysis. To be honest, I do not know if I am capable of "re-telling" the story in English. I mean, this needs high lexicon, grammar and vocabulary skills. Sometimes I need to use translator and dictionary to post around here. Yet, it is not impossible, and I want to give it a try the next time. Maybe, if I read more novels in English I would be able to develop my English thinking praxis.
Vera Mont August 22, 2023 at 19:44 #832803
Reply to javi2541997
Absolutely! Reading is the best way. My mother (who came here at 35, without a word of English) and husband (who had taken some courses in highschool) both leaned heavily on books. And there is such a wealth and range of literature to choose from.
One exercise I can recommend is to read the English translation of some Spanish books. It's particularly useful to have both texts available for comparison. Another is to write something original, something short and simple, in English and return to it three weeks later to assess how it sounds. Looking up individual words is no obstacle; it's usually grammar and syntax that give trouble.